A Devout Misha Minion
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I am a multifandom blog & my main focus is art and meta. Off the top of my head, these include but are not limited to: any Star Trek, Hannibal, Sleepy Hollow, Buffy, Doctor Who (Clara has officially surpassed both Martha & Donna as my fave which is kind of mindblowing), Supernatural (MIIIIISHA, GIIIIIIIIISHWHES), Teen Wolf (Tyler Hoechlin is a sunshine dork), Community, Harry Potter, Once Upon a Time & related works, Marvel the comics & related works, Avatar the Last Airbender & related works. Anything I've not mentioned is in my tags.


"Cas has this love of humanity. I don’t think Hannah quite shares that.”

Executive producer Robert Singer, season 10 iTunes sneak peek


Fantasy Drabble VI


"There is a world where whenever someone fantasizes about you, you can physically feel it, but you have no idea who is thinking it about you."

Stiles knows it’s wrong, but he’s been Fantasizing about Derek and he can’t bring himself to stop. Derek doesn’t know who’s taken an interest in him, but he’s enjoying it way more than he probably should.

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The tone of the Fantasies doesn’t exactly change after that. Derek still finds himself panting into his mattress late at night, groin hitching against hips that fit too well into the shape of his palms, mouthing wetly against a neck that stretches and groans silent encouragement, body surging back against him rough and frantic with need until they both tumble over that edge into toe-curling bliss…

But there are new little additions to their routine as well, the way the body will curl up next to him afterward, long fingers trailing through his hair and soft, unheated kisses brushing his temple until he dozes off.

There are the moments of unexpected warmth that flood over him throughout the day – strong arms and a warm body suddenly against him in a way that should feel stifling but somehow manages to leach all the tension right out of him.

It happens at the most random moments, with no way to prepare for it – while he’s out running, doing chores, eating dinner – and Derek realizes quickly that it isn’t a prelude to anything, not some new type of foreplay, when he tries to reciprocate with a kiss and finds a pair of fingers brushing his lips, holding him off. So, just a hug then. Just… comfort.

He’s not sure what to make of it, this new development in their… not relationship, because to have a relationship he’d have to have even the slightest idea who he’s having the relationship with.

And the fact that he doesn’t is starting to affect him in ways it hadn’t when it was just sex between them.


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The Fires of Idirsholas

Kilgharrah: There will come a time when you have a chance to do the right thing.
Merlin: I love those moments. I like to wave at them as they pass by.


"And one day you’re gonna come back to this barn and on that day you’re going to be very afraid indeed. But that’s okay, because if you’re very wise and very strong fear doesn’t have to make you cruel or cowardly. Fear can make you kind."

Unfortunately, these aren’t very high quality photos, but this is my newest treasure. I hardly ever finish any knitting or crocheting for myself, so I splurged a little on this adorable flower hat. The lady that made it, Collene, owns her own alpaca farm and does just amazing work. $25 for this! :) And I went ahead and requested some fingerless gloves to match, I couldn’t resist.

CBS Fall Promo 2014 [x]

Hello! I've just found your blog, and love reading your posts. My question are for the TW 4X10 review. Didn't 2x09 showed us that Stile's worst fear is his father blaming him for his mothers death. Couldn't his embracing/relationship outlook of Malia be in part due to his missing mother figure? He also called Scotts mom mother once. Stiles isn't seen as being friends with as many of the people as Scott is. Also, I think the flaws in the relationships/overcoming them make the show fun to watch.




and first off - i’m sorry this has taken me forever to answer, but the last couple of weeks before the finale i got so many asks i couldn’t keep up, but now i’m in the process of answering them all :) thanks for your patience.

Let’s start with the 2x09 scene which is basically Stiles’ worst fear presented as an hallucination of his dad yelling at him

Sheriff: Why am I wearing black? What are you, an idiot? I just came from a funeral. You know, people wear black at funerals. Get out of my face.
It’s you.
It’s all you.
You know, every day I saw her lying that hospital slowly dying I thought, “how the hell am I supposed to raise this stupid kid on my own? This hyperactive little bastard who keeps ruining my life?” It’s all you.
It’s you, Stiles.
You killed your mother.
You hear me? You killed her.
And now you’re killing me.

We know so little about the stilinski family and its history, but for all the love they have for each other there is clearly something not right between Stiles and his dad. Like most family drama, this is probably because of misunderstandings, lack of communication and misinterpretations. But that just explains the problems, it doesn’t excuse them. But i’ve got another ask waiting about this, so i’ll hold on for now. I really want to look closer at this, but i need to do some rewatching first.

But they both lack a female influence in their lives and they seldom talk about Claudia. This is evident because in the few instances they do, they both freeze.


1x10 Co-captain

Sheriff: You know, I miss talking to you. It’s like we never have time-
Stiles: Dad, you know, I have to make a phone call-I’m sorry. I’ll be right back.
Sheriff: I do. I miss it. And I miss your mom.
Stiles: What’d you say?

With the scene from 2x09 and other references as well, particularly from agent McCall regarding the sheriff and drinking, we get the idea that he struggled after Claudia passed away. And when people are grieving, hurting and under the influence things might be said that they don’t really mean. Or maybe they sort of do mean it, but never intended to say it out loud. Like the sheriff feeling overwhelmed and scared at the prospect of raising Stiles alone. A kid with ADHD and now also suffering from the loss of a parent. As a mom i can understand how such a thought can feel cripling.

We have signs that tell us Stiles feels guilty. Guilty for his mom’s death (why we do not know), guilty over being a burden to his dad, for being a handful. So he’s taken on a parenting role himself. He’s watching out for his dad’s diet and he does seem terrified at the thought of loosing another parent. This he even admits to Scott - he doesn’t want to involve his dad in the supernatural, he wants to shield him and keep him safe.


Stiles also seems to have an extreme need for information. It is implied that he spies on his dad, listens in on his phone converstations, snoops through his things, records, police files etc. His dad won’t tell him - like most parents he wants to protect his kid, but stiles doesn’t want to be protected - he wants to protect. So he steals keys, duplicates keycards, knows his dads codes etc. He’s monitoring him.


Stiles: I know about the bills, Dad. I know about the collectors calling about Eichen House. I know about the advance from the department, about the credit cards.
Sheriff: Stiles, are you going through my stuff?
Stiles: Yeah, I go through all of your stuff. Especially when you keep things from me.
Sheriff: I keep things from you because you don’t need to know everything.
Stiles: Yes, I do. I have to know everything. How the hell else am I supposed to take care of you?
Sheriff: You’re not supposed to take care of me! I’m the dad. You’re the son. You get it?
Stiles: Dad.
Sheriff: Son. I take care of you.
Stiles: We’re supposed to take care of each other.

Remember that talk Stiles had with Morell in the guidance office after Matt died?

Morell: How about we get back to you? Stiles?
Stiles: I’m fine. Yeah, aside from the not sleeping, the jumpiness, the constant, overwhelming, crushing fear that something terrible’s about to happen.
Morell: It’s called hypervigilance, the persistent feeling of being under threat.
Stiles: But it’s not just a feeling, though. It’s it’s like it’s a panic attack.
You know, like I can’t even breathe.
Morell: Like you’re drowning?
Stiles: Yeah.
Morell: So if you’re drowning, and you’re trying to keep your mouth closed until that very last moment, what if you choose to not open your mouth? To not let the water in?
Stiles: Well, you do anyway. It’s a reflex.
Morell: But if you hold off until that reflex kicks in, you have more time, right?
Stiles: Not much time.
Morell: But more time to fight your way to the surface?
Stiles: I guess.
Morell: More time to be rescued?
Stiles: More time to be in agonizing pain. And did you forget about the part where you feel like your head’s exploding?
Morell: If it’s about survival, isn’t a little agony worth it?
Stiles: And what if it just gets worse? What if it’s agony now and then and it’s just hell later on?
Morell: Then think about something- “If you’re going through hell, keep going.


This converstation comes right after Matt died and after Stiles has gone through a lot of drama with Scott becoming a werewolf, Peter and his murder spree and now this kanima business with Matt. It’s easy to assume that he’s referring to this when he talks about the not sleeping, the jumpiness etc. And on the surface that is probably true, but i also think this conversation masks as stiles opening up about things he’s been struggling with for a long time.

He’s basically describing trying to keep a panick attack at bay and i think this is what he does constantly. But he masks it, hides it and pushes it aside and focuses all his attention on others - mainly his dad and scott. As the seasons progress, more people have been included into his must take care of circle - like Lydia, Derek and also lately Malia and Liam. We joke about pack mom Stiles, but it’s really not a joke. Stiles has for all intents and purposes taken on the mom role in his relationship with his dad, and he’s projecting it onto his friends.

I agree with you that Stiles does seem to want a female influence as well, a mother figure in his life. But i don’t see his relationship with Malia as a result of this. I actually see this more as a parallel to his relationship with his dad. Stiles has taken on a parent role with both his dad and Malia, and i think guilt is at the root in both cases. I’ve disected the Stalia relationship here and won’t go into details now.

If there is anyone Stiles sees as a mother figure in his life, i think it’s Melissa. I have a feeling Stiles has been a prominent figure in their house in later years. Melissa reacts to stiles and his antics with the same kind of resigned amusement she does with scott and their interactions tells me she’s fond of him. Stiles feels so at home he’s even made himself a key something which doesn’t surprise Melissa at all.


I do think she’s been the closest thing to a mom he’s had since he was 8 and the scene in the hospital when he calls her mom is heartbreaking, but you can also see how much it affects Melissa. She cares about this oddball, that much is clear and at times i do feel she understands Stiles better than the sheriff does. She certainly has more patience with him.

And another thing - she trusts him. When she finds inconsistencies with bodies, she calls Stiles. She trusts him with the supernatural. She trusts him to help take care of Scott - like when the faked his death. For however much the sheriff loves Stiles, he doesn’t seem to trust him.


So Melissa is an important constant in his life, and so in the scene after Void has puked up another Stiles free of possession and Melissa is hesitant to touch him, you can see how much that really hurts Stiles. Because he’s scared the trust has been broken. Thankfully it hasn’t.


I wholeheartedly agree with you that it’s the flaws in people, the flaws in their relationships and how they deal with it that is the most interesting part. All the main characters on Teen Wolf are layered and complex, and that is also why we care so much about them and get upset when we feel things aren’t going the way we want it to.

Oh, gods. The relationship between Stiles and Melissa just makes me want to cry. He’s such a lost little boy, though he hides it well under a veneer of wit, sarcasm and hyperactivity. Melissa strikes me as one of the few people who sees it, though.

enamour me :3


Derek doesn’t notice he’s doing it at first. He makes a habit of picking up the pack’s mannerisms, after all – it’s not that unusual that he knows Stiles doesn’t like anchovies but will fight Boyd to get to a pizza with double pepperoni. What is unusual is that Derek makes sure to order double pepperoni on everything.

But whatever, right? They’re american. Pepperoni is what they do.

The Jstor subscription charged to Derek’s credit card is slightly harder to explain. When he signs up, he tells himself it’s for the pack. Research is key, after all. And okay, so Stiles ends up being the only one with the login details - that’s just because he does the lions share of the research. It has nothing at all to do with him taking on a double load of subjects at college.

At all.

And, okay, the curly fries Derek makes sure to grab before picking Stiles up for stakeouts are maybe a little damning, but it’s not his fault that Stiles talks less if his mouth is occupied and- and…

Derek swears, staring in horror at the curly fries in the passenger seat. They may as well be glittering in a small velvet box for all his heart is suddenly trying to beat out of his chest.

Holy fuck, he’s wooing Stiles.

Holy fuck, he’s wooing Stiles with curly fries.

"Oh my god," Stiles says, yanking the passenger side door open to grab at the food. "You are my hero.”

Derek watches, dumbstruck, as Stiles slouches into the seat and rips into the fries like he hasn’t seen food in a week. Crumbs fly everywhere. Stiles grunts like he’s on the discovery channel. It’s really, really disgusting.

"I think I’m in love with you."

Stiles’ head snaps around so hard, a fry actually launches from his lips to land in Derek’s lap. Derek picks it up and eats it with numb horror.

"Um," Stiles says.

Derek closes his eyes and wishes very hard for a natural disaster. Or even a supernatural one. Sudden plague of land-based black holes. He could work with that.

Derek takes a breath. “You don’t have to-“

He doesn’t get any further, because there are suddenly long-fingered hands either side of his face and a warm mouth on his and- oh.

Stiles tastes like salt and peppermint – likely the gum he has a half packet of in his hoodie pocket. The same pocket Derek uses as leverage to yank Stiles over into his lap.

The curly fries are stone cold by the time they get to them.

Misha wishing Cas a happy birthday (x)


You have your ATLA fans and your LOK fans

And then you have fans of this entire world that Bryke has created and fans that would love to know everything about every avatar ever and just love to see how is everything is connected and OMG I’m totally one of these people

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